ABOUT ME

I am extremely proud to say I have fully recovered from severe chronic fatigue syndrome, chronic pain, irritable bowel syndrome and also to have broken out of family dysfunction and parental narcissistic abuse.

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No one could help me. But I figured out the "impossible" on my own and now I help others :)

 

MY STORY

I was severely ill. Around Christmas 2018 I was preparing to die (I had made a memory box about me to leave behind, I kid you not). I had been bedbound for 3,5 years. No sound - I cried when I heard cutlery. No light. No appetite. Dizzying headaches. Severe, chronic constipation for over 2 years. IBS (irritable bowel syndrome) for 6 years. I was sometimes crawling from the bed to the bathroom. I had trouble getting food and water in me. I was 40 kg, very underweight. My heart rhytm was out of whack. My hygiene and shower-routine was nonexistent. I will never forget the moment I gave up, that was when clarity came flooding in and a fire was lit inside of me. I realized no one was coming to save me and I would have to fight for myself.


After trying everything and being so tired of doctors making me feel even worse for years, I randomly came across Ayurveda (Indian traditional medicine) on a podcast during the spring of 2018. I was very intrigued. I read books and tried my best to implement elements from Ayurveda and Yoga into my life on my own, but I needed stronger stuff. The 21st of January 2019 I started 16 days of panchakarma (ayurvedic intensive treatment). My energy suddenly improved a few days before panchakarma started, when I started eating the prescribed food during panchakarma: kitchari. I actually digested something without any discomfort for the first time in years. Instead of feeling exhausted and foggy after a meal, I felt light and clear.


The practitioner came to my house for the treatment, I could barely open the door. The night before we started I cried because I was so scared I wouldn't be able to open the door. After one week of treatment every day, my energy skyrocketed back to normal levels! I was able to go outside for the first time in... I don't even remember. I took a taxi to the clinic for the remaining treatment. The last couple of days of treatment I took the bus! I had no muscles but my energy was back!

 
 

Panchakarma gave me an immense physical boost and the strength to go deeper in my healing. It was after panchakarma that I began to realize why I had ended up so severely ill. That's when the real healing begun. And had I not dealth with the root causes I would've been back in the same state in a matter of weeks. The treatment gave me a boost, but it wouldn't have lasted without cleaning up my life.


The reason why I got so sick is that I had been under severe parental abuse (verbal, mental and emotional) for 27 years. Every day of my life I had been terrified, holding my breath, walking on eggshells, trying to be sweet and avoid the rages. This is no way to live, and trust me it is extremely destructive over time, it is impossible to have good physical and mental health in such an environment. After clawing my way out of being bed bound on my own, I felt strong enough to get real. My life was full of pain, I was a people-pleaser and everything from my career, to the way I dressed and carried myself was inauthentic, desperate attempts to earn my parent's approval and love. Do you think healthy food will be enough to provide health in such a life? Didn't think so. We have to look honestly at our lives to find true health. Ayurveda pulled me from the brink of death, and gave me the boost I needed to look at my life and relationships honestly, and cut ties for good in June of 2019.


After my escape I did a ton of inner healing work to repair my self-image, release all the accumulated repressed emotions and learn to set boundaries. I can now proudly say I feel like I am the person I was born to be :) I feel like myself.


I now help others to recognize & deal with the root causes of their illness, make game plans to getting un-stuck, set boundaries and eliminate energy leaks, heal from their past and become the person they were meant to be.

If I can do it, and so can you.

I learnt that you CAN save yourself and you CAN heal yourself. 


Please share if you know someone who is in a similar situation!


I'm rooting for you!

Vera


For those interested in Ayurveda: I was treated by July Huang and Dr Amruta Athale at Shankha Ayurveda Clinic in Trondheim, Norway. You can e-mail them at ayurvedayoga@gmail.com (do not spam, only serious inquiries)

I have also linked some ayurvedic books under resources for self-study :)